Tuesday, May 1, 2007

The beginning of the end

I am a wierdo (in case anyone didn't already know that). Sofia is officially weaned, and it is killing me(I am not just talking about the engorged boobs). I was so completely ready to wean her as my body was on overload producing a new baby and milk for Sofia. I thought that the process would be easy for me but hard for her, but I was wrong. I miss the closeness from nursing. Sofia has never been very snuggly, so nursing was the one time I had her to myself to bond and snuggle with her. This may be a little dramatic, but this whole process has made me start thinking about how hard it is to let go as a parent. I am having a sad enough time with weaning... I can't even think about sending them to college or even kindergarten. Anyways.. this is my random thought for the day. I also realized today that I am too busy right now, and I really miss Sofia. Today she was at the babysitters essentially all day with an hour break in between visiting her and then an hour after work I left her with Chris to go to a church activity I had committed to. It is interesting trying to find a balance. It is refreshing to work a tiny bit and feel exicted and ready to spend time with her, but I also feel so sad when a day goes by and I only spent 2 hours with her. This is something I definitely don't want to get into the habit of doing. I really like bothof my jobs a lot, but no job is better than spending time with my family. Whoo hoo summer is just 6 weeks away and then the real parties start!!


Carlos said...

Those old cliches are so true...they do grow up so quick. Thank goodness Sofia has a wise and loving mommy who knows that and who takes time for the special little moments like walking in the park and picking flowers and berries and reading books. Those are the memories that will last forever - even though your babies will grow up.

Love ya,
P.S. Happy Mother's Day!

Kara's Blog said...

Happy Mothers Day to you Sharon!! I can't wait for you guys to come this weekend. Thank you for being a good role model to me of a great mother. Sofia is so lucky to have you as a grandma!!