The beginning of the end

I am a wierdo (in case anyone didn't already know that). Sofia is officially weaned, and it is killing me(I am not just talking about the engorged boobs). I was so completely ready to wean her as my body was on overload producing a new baby and milk for Sofia. I thought that the process would be easy for me but hard for her, but I was wrong. I miss the closeness from nursing. Sofia has never been very snuggly, so nursing was the one time I had her to myself to bond and snuggle with her. This may be a little dramatic, but this whole process has made me start thinking about how hard it is to let go as a parent. I am having a sad enough time with weaning... I can't even think about sending them to college or even kindergarten. Anyways.. this is my random thought for the day. I also realized today that I am too busy right now, and I really miss Sofia. Today she was at the babysitters essentially all day with an hour break in between visiting her and then an hour after work I left her with Chris to go to a church activity I had committed to. It is interesting trying to find a balance. It is refreshing to work a tiny bit and feel exicted and ready to spend time with her, but I also feel so sad when a day goes by and I only spent 2 hours with her. This is something I definitely don't want to get into the habit of doing. I really like bothof my jobs a lot, but no job is better than spending time with my family. Whoo hoo summer is just 6 weeks away and then the real parties start!!